Recently I had the chance of watching the movie based on the life of Sylvia Plath (any chance you interested you tube, nine to ten parts), those  who have no idea whom I am talking about (just remember once you read the poem ‘mirror’ in high school, that’s the poetess) …though how much neck deep the movie was in poetry, to me it failed to capture the essence of Sylvia Plath poetic beauty..

The one conclusion the movie directed the audience to, Sylvia committed suicide because her so called genius husband left her for other women…

She had depression as long as she remembered, intensifying after her father’s death…the reason she finally gave in to the temptation of dying was never his husband disloyalty…it was psychological condition, an illness she had.

what captured my attention though was a comment from random person, that sometimes you really can't fight depression, and its not worth it...no offence to anyone but if Sylvia would have lived a bit more she would have seen all her dreams align the way they are...yes, there was a very gloomy side to her, but there was an intellectual one too...when i read those i realize how much she wanted to live, more then she ever wanted to die! 

Bygone is bygone, what’s left behind are the most memorable words she scribbled in gloomy nights, apparently she was most productive when she was very close to death, here are some wonderful quotes,

‘I am too pure for you or anyone.’

‘Kiss me, and you will see how important I am’

‘Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.’

‘I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.’

Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.